today

Right now I am thinking about, and slightly dreading our project staff meeting this afternoon. Dreading because I have a few things to say - constructive things about the rest of the project - but I fear:
1. There will be a defensive reponse;
2. That nothing will happen anyway - business as usual on a bumbling along project.

London is not the best

Sheffield is magical, sweet and full of opportunities...

yesterday

James Y in Birmingham left me with a parting shot - "What is the opposite of toxic shock syndrome?" It was in response to me saying that I felt revatilized by the (expensive) peach and mint drink that I'd just had in a cafe on New Street. So, what is the opposite of toxic shock syndrome?

The online Cambridge dictionary doesn't have an entry for toxic shock syndrome, nor one for 'toxic shock', so 'toxic' is: poisonous and unpleasant, 'shock' is: surprise and damaging effect.
'Syndrome' is: a combination of medical problems that commonly go together, which might show the existence of a particular disease or mental condition.

Opposite (and I have some Derridean-inspired resistance to dichotomize in this way) might be:
"Revitalizing, pleasurable, expected and nourishing health boost." OR

Pleasant nourishing sense of well being...
Mmmmmm - not too satisfied with this.

post-show

It happened - we finally did it. The first show of Other Things - but definitely not the last.
Only seven people turned up - Brenda, Matthew, Lucy and Rachel, Carol and Peter and Anthony.
I really hadn't anticipated so few people.
Then, it was going well and Stephen got to the last monologue - the Theatre one. Going well, and then he left something out!!! He tried to recover but it wasn't working, so he said 'Sorry, I'm going to start again', He recovered amazingly.
Things I am learning:
1. Other Things is about liberation.
2. Persuade Stephen (with others) that it doesn't have to be word perfect etc.
3. Let's play with the group - have fun.
4. Let's never use Walkley Community Centre again (they were fixing the heating just as the show was about to start)
5. Find a way to find 4/5 new performers....

Lucy taught me something about love yesterday....and not anger...

show today

It's the day of our show - and I am more nervous than if I was performing myself.
Stephen had a few very wobbly moments in the last rehearsal yesterday - things that have never happened before....! Seemed to fit the stereotype of the last rehearsal - getting all the last bits of problems out. But let's see what happens tonight.
I'l be very relaxed by 9pm this evening.
Is it worth it?